Now for the fun part

So the search begins. Scholarships. I feel an inexplicable aversion to the entire process, but I'm sure it's no more than I felt with regard to college apps, and I've finished those with no glitches. There's something that I can't quite put my finger on, though, that seems manipulative about the whole thing. I have money for all four years of college thanks to the college fund that my dad left me, and maybe it will even prove enough to start me on grad school - so why should I try to get various organizations to give me more money? What about all the people who actually need that money? My mom reminds me that I'll want money for travel and my own purposes, but it seems wrong to get scholarship money that will eventually just pay for trips... I'd rather work hard in a job that means something to me and get the money by my own means, not just because of my GPA and SATs and an essay that doesn't necessarily show who I am.

At the same time, I feel like I owe it to my mother to apply for some scholarships, because that means she'll have to pay less up front before I'm 18 and can access the college money my dad left me. It's my mom who's encouraging me to apply for scholarships, and while it seems like a hateful, unfair process I know I'll be glad to get some money in the end. And my mom will be glad, and anything that can keep her from worrying about my future is always a bonus.

Labels: college

posted by Holly @ 7:01 PM