Familiar scents

I helped my friend develop a roll of film today after school. Well, I more of stood around and made wisecracks while being more or less unhelpful, but at least I was there for moral support and such. She's doing something photography-related for her senior project, which I'm now rather jealous of - I'm going to shadow a doctor, which at the moment seems a very scary and unfamiliar project. But anyway, coming home I smelled my hands and discovered the scent of the chemicals still clinging onto them. Inexplicably, one of my favorite scents has always been the smell of developer, which smells like the musty, heavy scent of bacon - it brings back all the summers I spent doing photography next to the woodworking shop at Poly, and then at Westridge... it's one of those scents that I can breathe really deeply to!

In other news, AAAH! When I forget to put everything into perspective, I suddenly feel as though the entire universe is pitted against me, and that it's mostly concentrated in the current and following week. Then I have something to eat, take a couple deep breaths, remind myself that it's okay if things don't work out, that all I have are a few assignments which can each easily be done; it's okay if I make mistakes and if not everything I do is perfect. And once I do that, once I remind myself to enjoy instead of stress, I feel better about this week. I've foolishly committed to a few things, which I didn't realize would require so much work as they do, but it's not the end of the world. Everything's cool.

And even better with the sense of calm I always get from the darkroom :)

Labels: Westridge

posted by Holly @ 6:37 PM